a world I never imagined
- a world without you -
has descended upon us
cold
sudden
& crushing
and little of it makes
sense
it hurts not to have said
goodbye
but I know
you wouldn't have wanted it
any other way
I wish I could have said
so much more
but I know
words never meant
much to you
I just hope to have made it clear
how much I love you
how much I always will
how much you mean to me
your smile
your voice
your eyes
your warmth
are within me forever
you loved life
you were life
and the beauty of your
heart & mind & soul
higher than anything else
is every day a small miracle to me
to think of how much you gave me
of how much you were
were you ever fully happy
or understood?
I guess I'll never know
but I do know the
beautiful flame
within you
never flickered
not judging many of those
who judged you
contemplating
feeling
smiling
living & loving
each day
more human than any of us
I hope to have made you
proud
if nowhere near as much
as you made me
I hope you realize I would
be nothing
& have nothing
had I not glimpsed
the treasure behind your eyes
I want you to know
in every word & gesture & look
how much I love you
and I always will
farewell
